My Sun
Hey Dad! I didn’t find you ex-facebook page for send you a message. I hope you’re good, and enjoying this summer. Lily and me are both working on boats, and we want to go in USA/ Canada in November, just for travelling. I was thinking about buy a Van, to cross the roads of north america! But maybe we will not have enough money to buy one, and then we will improvise something else! Well whatever, I will contact you when we will be there, and we will come, for one more paint or anything else! We love you both. Morgan
8/19/13, 7:27 PM
Stephen Shellen
I will try to get some work and buy you a van or find one for you both, miss you so much, love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10/27/13, 3:50 PM
Hey Dad! How are you? Tell me, where will you be between November and February? Because we’re gonna travel all around United States and Canada with Lily! We want to see you, it would be great to see you, whatever where you are! Let me know! We send you all our love! xoxox
10/27/13, 5:01 PM
Stephen Shellen
Morrrrrrrrrrgan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10/28/13, 2:42 PM
Stephen Shellen
I would love to see you two as well. I am almost finished working entirely as the blacklist for the past 18 years does not subside and it is time for someone to come forward and tell me why this happened. I am practically invisible and getting tired of this war. While ex associates of mine are receiving awards at the Cannes film festival I am broke and still being punished for wanting to know what happened all those years ago. I read that your mother has H.I.V. …is this true…if so, I hope she will feel it in her heart to tell me what the hell this was all about! Wish I could give you all those years back that I was being harassed and hounded like a dog. Forgiveness is important but I would like to know what it is I am supposed to forgive. Love as always to you and Lily!!!! You are great!!!!
11/6/13, 2:07 PM
Don’t worry dad, we are not asking for forgivness! we are just asking for peace, and have some good time with you! Well, we are in Los Angeles for two weeks with Lily, and we are visiting kiyoshi: we will show you some photos of your childrens 
Then we are gonna move, when i’ll receive my driver licence from france. i wish we can visit montana, and the motel i was born in! Then, i don’t know where are you, but we both want to come visit you!
See you soon Dad! xoxox
Then we are gonna move, when i’ll receive my driver licence from france. i wish we can visit montana, and the motel i was born in! Then, i don’t know where are you, but we both want to come visit you!See you soon Dad! xoxox
Stephen Shellen
Peace??? For me that ended 18 years ago, have you any idea what shit I have gone through?? Because I wanted to find out who had hit your mother and threatened YOU!!! Peace…that is a joke. With no truth there is no peace. Tired of living like a dog. I would love to see both but much to say and Florence owes me an explanation. As does Veliina!! You were all pawns in this game!! I was told by many out in Hollywood to forget ABOUT MY CHILDREN AND MAYBE I WOULD WORK AGAIN. I REFUSED!!!!!
11/6/13, 6:18 PM
When I’m talking about peace, i’m talking about peace between you and Lily and me. I’m not talking about Florence or Velina. I haven’t got answers, I haven’t got the truth: we are the kids and we have suffer because of that “war” too. We want to see you for a simple relation between a father and his childrens. Nothing more.
11/6/13, 7:52 PM
But I’m not a pawn, and I will never be one. If I was listening to my mom, I wouldn’t ask for seeing you. That’s why I was so happy to see you in Marroco, because, for the first time I had your version of the story. I hope we can share good moments together, even if the past is dark…
11/9/13, 9:58 AM
Stephen Shellen
Are you with Florence?? By the way, the address of the house you lived in when you were born until you were 11 months old is 2946 Beachwood Drive. Maybe Veliina could drive you up there. The irony of it all is I sold that house to pay Velina’s lawyer Paul Moore hoping that would satisfy them and I could settle that situation. It didn’t as they dragged me back to court for 3 more years, accusing me of hiding money until eventually I lost agents and managers who grew tired of the harassment from her lawyer. Those were tough years as you were just little, Lily was born and I was constantly having to appear in court in Los Angeles, leaving you, Lily ad Florence on the farm. It was a nightmare!!! So fed up and missing you and Lily.I even tried at the time to get visitation with Keyoshi, my dream being that we could all get along. It was suggested I go to parenting class which was just bullshit as I was already a father and raising you and Lily. I am trying to stay positive and support your trip there but honestly, Velina and her lawyer made our lives a living hell. I find it very curious that you are all there together…call me 514 985 9398. Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!
11/10/13, 3:47 PM
No I’m not with Florence, we stay with Kiyoshi who make us discover the LA life. We’re gonna move with Lily in 1 week or two and then we will cross the country! I know that it is curious to know that we are together Lily, Kiyoshi and me, but we’re having fun: Your blood is the link, and it’s weird in a way, because the three of us have got the same energy! I’ll call you when we’ll be on the road! Love
Stephen Shellen
Glad you are having fun and insist on giving Kiyoshi a hug from me, even though he will try to pull away. Now don’t you and Lily become too enamored or impressed with that L.A. life. It is what is inside you heart that matters. Sorry I am so poor at the moment. Hopefully I will sell a painting soon!!
Stephen Shellen
…your heart I meant to say
I will! Don’t worry for money, that is not what matter!
11/18/13, 12:46 AM
Stephen Shellen
Where are you two???I hope you are okay
11/18/13, 4:13 PM
We are going to move to San fransisco, and then we would like to discover the natural parcs, but we haven’t any car to drive, we depend on the bus so it’s less easy as we think. We should be in Canada in January, i’ll keep you in touch
11/21/13, 1:25 PM
Stephen Shellen
Are you working?? Please try to call me or do you have a phone?
11/21/13, 4:28 PM
We are gonna get one, I will call you around the 26, for sure And no, we are not working, we’ve work the summer for enjoying this winter here.
And no, we are not working, we’ve work the summer for enjoying this winter here.I hope you’re fine and that we’ll see you soon: i’ll let you know when we have buy an american phone! We will travel by bus because we can’t buy a car (to expensive) and we can’t rent a car (we need to be more than 25 years old). See you soon dad!
12/7/13, 9:27 PM
Hey Dad! We’ve begin our trip (by bus, thank you greyhound lines) it’s less exiting than with our own car but well… We are both in San Fransisco right now, sleeping in a little hostel.
I’ve try to call you on your phone, but it’s not working, i don’t know why. Maybe it can work if you call us ? this is our number phone : 1 213 820 3455.
I’ve try to call you on your phone, but it’s not working, i don’t know why. Maybe it can work if you call us ? this is our number phone : 1 213 820 3455.
I wish we’ll see you in January but it’s not sure at 100% because I’m maybe gonna stay in California if I find a job: I don’t really want to come back in Nice, even if my friends are there, I’m just curious about all the opportunities here. For sure I will come to see you but maybe not in January!
What about you? Everything’s alright?
If you can call us, that would be great! We’ll see you, soon or later, hopefully soon 
Love you
xoxox
Lily and Morgan
12/8/13, 11:59 PM
Stephen Shellen
GREAT TALKING!!! 514 985 9398 is the right number.I will call again soon!! Love you both!!
12/9/13, 1:03 PM
Stephen Shellen
I hope if you have a chance you and Lily visit Monterrey and Carmel. Also Big Sur is beautiful, especially the drive
12/13/13, 10:56 PM
Hey Dad! I’ve been looking at how we can get to Big Sur, Carmel or Monteray, but we must have a car. That’s so sad we havn’t got the vehicule. I remember all the photos of you, florence and me (baby), crossing the country in the Motorhome: Freedom on the Road. That gave me the envy to do the same thing! If I stay in America, I will buy a car for sure and then I’ll go where I want! We both think about you Dad, and send you all our Love!
12/14/13, 1:03 AM
Stephen Shellen
Oh thanks Morgan it is too bad I couldn’t just send you some money to buy a car.
Love you both!
12/14/13, 11:45 AM
Stephen Shellen
Just suggested to Lily that you try to get out to the wine districts in Napa and Sonoma. John Steinbeck is the great author who wrote about experiences in Monterrey. I suppose for me, it was a very profound author and I loved his writings.
12/14/13, 7:31 PM
John Steinbeck? I never know about him, I should tcheck at one on his book. We gonna try to go there, many persons talk about Big sur too, we must see that!
Stephen Shellen
Good! You will like it. John Steinbeck was a hero of mine. He wrote a book called “the Grapes Of Wrath”.
12/14/13, 9:10 PM
Nice thank you, I will read that. I’m reading a writer right now call Charles Bukowski, I guess you know him. Not everybody like his books: He was a men from LA, who’s done a lot of shity jobs, he was an alcoolic, and he spend his all life in misery: And he became suddenly famous around 45 years old. But I guess you know him for sure, he was a writer at the same period of Jack Kerouac or Ginsberg. I will try to find that book! Love you!
12/14/13, 10:38 PM
Stephen Shellen
I tried to get him to read at the poetry bar I was a partner in. Around 1988, obviously before you were born. Sean Penn used to come in and I had asked him I think, to see if Charles would come read at one of my Wednesday night poetry readings. Apparently Bukowski wasn’t interested, haha! Maybe too drunk! I haven’t got drunk in years now. Feels good!! I am broke but loving life! Love you too!!
WOW! Yeah that bukowski was too drunk for sure! But yeah, I know sean pean knew bukowski! Whatever, I remember you’ve already stop drinking in Marocco. Are you still a huge fan of spreakling water? xoxoxo
12/20/13, 9:28 AM
Stephen Shellen
Get into the wave…the west coast wave is the only wave to beatnic to
12/21/13, 9:29 PM
Haha, Yeah I think Lily and I are a kind of modern beatnic! And we feel pretty good on the west coast, but still curious about the east coast!
That’s a picture of the three of us in Kiyoshi’s house. You blood is running throw our veins! Love!
1/1/14, 5:47 AM
Happy new year Dad! Three years ago, we were in a car in Marocco, trying to get into a private party where Manu was playing guitar. And then, back at home, we talk all night before get my taxi around 5 am to get my plane back! I hope we’ll see you soon, happy new year again, love you!
1/3/14, 4:20 PM
Stephen Shellen
Love love love you too!! Big hugs to Lily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1/9/14, 7:00 PM
Hey Dad! I just hear your voice message on our phone, but I never have the phone with me, and I didn’t realize you’ve called! I keep the phone with me, and I’ll try to answer next time! xoxo
1/11/14, 9:05 PM
We just arrive in New York and fuckin hell, it’s expensive! We will visit tomorrow! And we want to know what are you doing around the 17-24 of January? If possible it would be nice to come see you in Montréal! Let us know! Love U!
1/13/14, 2:38 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hi Morgan, it’s Kim…Stephen is out of town right now but wants to talk to you and Lily. Is there a number he can reach you at that won’t cost you any money? I hope you both had a great Christmas and we’re anxious to see you two! xo
1/13/14, 7:24 PM
Hello Kim! Our american number phone is not working anymore, but he can call us on my french number phone which is the 0669622986. Don’t worry about the money it cost, money is not a limit for talking to our Dad 
. Our flight to come back in France is from Toronto, so we haven’t got a lot of time, so if we can see you it’s great, if not, let’s do it another time!Anyway I will come back pretty soon on the continent!
Hope you’re good!
Love!
Lily and Morgan
. Our flight to come back in France is from Toronto, so we haven’t got a lot of time, so if we can see you it’s great, if not, let’s do it another time!Anyway I will come back pretty soon on the continent!Hope you’re good!
Love!
Lily and Morgan
1/14/14, 9:45 PM
Stephen Shellen
When are you going back to France? Are you still coming on the 17th? Stephen should be back then.
We don’t know, we should leave around the 17 or 18 yes, but we just want to make sure we can see Stephen because we need to take our bus tickets 3 days before! And then we have to be in Toronto around the 25. So if there is no problem for you, we’ll be happy to come, otherwise, don’t worry, we can go straight to Ontario and see you another time!
Stephen Shellen
We’d love to see you if you can come to Montreal! Stephen is coming back so he can see you and Lily. I hope there is no problem?
All right, amazing. There is absolutly no problem, improvisation is fun! We will not stay for a long time, but it is gonna be good for all of us to be together: Even if it’s a bit scary after all those years (especially for Lily!). I’ll send you a message tomorrow or after tomorrow to tell you when we’ll arrive (with greyhound bus normally). See you soon then? Send you both a big hug from NY!
Stephen Shellen
Great!!! Big hugs to you and Lily!!!
1/16/14, 5:38 PM
Hello! Well, I know we told you that at the very last time, but we just take our tickets: We arrive to Montréal tomorrow around 5 PM! Don’t worry about us at first, we will find a hostel! So if we don’t see you tomorrow, we’ll see you the 18! Go on Facebook as often as you can, because we haven’t got any phone anymore, so we will talk by Facebook to find a place to find you!
We are really excited, and happy to see you really soon!!!
Love xoxoxoxo
1/16/14, 8:59 PM
Stephen Shellen
No w3ay come here, it may be a bit messy but who cares right?? Get over here!!!!
Stephen Shellen
514 985 9398. We are on St Laurent or I can meet you!!!
Just call me if you can when you leave.I guess with a phone card. If I am out I will be back, just walking Mooshie.Is it Greyhound??
Ok great! I send you a message on faceook tomorrow in the journey! And, yes, normally we should arrive at 5 pm at greyhound station! So… see you tomorrow!!
1/17/14, 10:19 AM
Hey Dad! We are on the road to Montréal, we will arrive at 4:55 pm at greyhound station! See you later 
1/17/14, 11:22 AM
Stephen Shellen
Wow!! Okay, if the border customs agents need an address for you thn give them my address.It is 3655 St. Laurent Blvd, loft 205. As I am an activist they may check your bags but then again, maybe not! I never have much trouble coming into Canada but be a little careful if you know what I mean
1/17/14, 3:52 PM
Ok! Well, we will maybe arrive a bit later than 5 because of the traffic, I try to send you a message when we’ve crossed the border, otherwise that means that internet conexion is not working!
Stephen Shellen
okay, maybe before 12’00 tonight I hope
Stephen Shellen
did you get through??
1/18/14, 5:53 PM
Stephen Shellen
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1/25/14, 5:41 PM
Stephen Shellen
What is going on??? WE miss you guys!!!!!!I wonder if Liloy is knitting??? Love love love!!!
We are still in the bus on the way! Lily is knitting, yes, I guess she found a new passion
We miss you too,I ‘ll let you know when we are at Sierra’s appartment!
1/25/14, 9:03 PM
We are at Sierra’s flat, we miss you already and we’re thinking that we should stay 2 more days in Montréal! Anyway see you soon! Thank you for everything, it was amazing to be with you!!!!
Stephen Shellen
What the fuc!!!We both miss you both like crazy and everybody at the Bifteck wants you to come back, hahahaha!!!!!
Stephen Shellen
I have been looking at the little painting you did with the writing and I really like it…I can'[t understand all of it so I will ask P.A.
1/28/14, 5:07 PM
Stephen Shellen
Have you had fun?? Was Toronto a good time?? Let us both know, call us if you can before you leave
1/28/14, 6:17 PM
We had an amazing time, feeling that normal thing with you! We miss Montréal, Toronto is more boring even if we have find a good bar too. We miss you a lot a regret that we didn’t stay longer in Montréal: But we’ll be back! I’ll try to call thanks to Sierra’s phone before we leave: Love you, and give a big hug to Kim,she’s amazing, the perfect step mother! A big hug to moochie! LOVE XOXOXO
Stephen Shellen
I hope it isn’t better than the Bifteck, haha….say hi to Lily. Kim sends her love
1/28/14, 7:59 PM
Bifteck is the best!
2/2/14, 12:48 PM
Stephen Shellen
Tell me if ……………………………………………………………..everything went okay and that you and Lily are back in France?
2/2/14, 6:50 PM
hey dad! yes we arrive safely in France, a bit sad but full of energy for moving on, do new things! how are you? we miss you!
2/8/14, 6:23 PM
Stephen Shellen
Let me know if you are still wonderful. We miss you and Lily and wonder if in a parallel universe we are all one big happy family!Geez, I sure love you!!
2/9/14, 1:55 PM
Haha, I hope we are! And of course, I’m gonna win some money for paying my time travel with your company! I’m gonna send you the photos of Montréal as soon as I can! Big hugs form lily and me! Love you!!
2/19/14, 10:52 AM
Stephen Shellen
Just a note to tell you I love you and Lily!!!!!
2/23/14, 12:37 PM
We love you too! Lily is in Nice and I m in Grenoble of course, I hope everything is alright in Montreal! Big hugs too you, Kim and Moochie!!
3/29/14, 2:27 PM
Hey Dad! How are you in MT? I just get a brand new flatin Grenoble, and I’m writing a comic book with an artist friend who make the drawings, and I make the scenario! Hope I can send you some pages of itas soon as I can! Make a hug to Kim and Moochie!Love you!!!!
4/9/14, 12:06 PM
Stephen Shellen
Wow, Grenoble, I was there just after the war and loved it there. Art town, great for you! I remember you told me you were going there. Comic books are kool, yeah, I can see you writing this and making it very interesting and far fucking out!! Lots to tell you about here. Excited about this comic book idea, there are many art fairs and comic book conventions. Have some young artist friends that have done it and they got published. We are all fine here although Mooshie is getting old
4/15/14, 10:21 AM
Hey Dad! That’s few photos of our great week in Montreal. So good do have some family pictures! Love!
4/15/14, 9:12 PM
Stephen Shellen
Some of these are fabulous!! Love the one of Lily in from of the green wall and the one with Mooshie, hahaha
Both of you look great with the green wall.
5/24/14, 12:13 AM
Stephen Shellen
So….what is happening this summer?? Where are you going to be? Any chance of seeing you? Miss you and ….well man oh man, I love you!!!
5/25/14, 5:51 PM
Hey Dad! So this summer, I’m probably going back on tugs for 2 month. Florence just quit the house in Coaraze, and she’s going to live in a studio in town. So no more child memories, and a brand new beggining! And, in September I’m going in Australia or Canada with Thibault! We need to find a job there, and see what is going on after! In all case I have no more reason to stay in France, exept all my friends! I’d love to come see you, it depends of how things are gonna come. Anyway I’ll be back soon! Wish you are great, you, Kim and Moochie! LOVE!
5/26/14, 12:12 AM
Stephen Shellen
Wow so sorry your mom got rid of the house. Thibault is a good choice to travel with, sounds like he wants to figure his shit out and find his way artistically too.Sorry, but I don’t believe in school unless you want to be some fucking ‘avocate scum sucker’ or something. Living life is the best education. Miss you and Lily. Shit happens and then you die but it is everything that you ‘live’ in between. maybe I am a suck but I still believe in not trying to hurt anyone or anything and being honest(which of course hurts people but you don’t mean to. Fucking great seeing you again and I miss you. I LOVE YOU!!!!
6/17/14, 6:51 AM
Hey Dad! Happy birthday! Wish we could be with you, eating a cake in montreal to celebrate! Love you!
6/17/14, 10:30 AM
Stephen Shellen
Me too!!! I LOVE you with ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!
8/16/14, 7:25 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hey, happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck, I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8/16/14, 11:24 PM
Stephen Shellen
YOU WERE AND STILL ARE THE GREATEST
10/22/14, 4:49 PM
Hey Dad! I have watched Guru of sad again. That’s hilarious! How are you all in Montreal? I will be in Bristol in one week, to see what is going on by there! Big street art city (do you know Banksy? He’s a street artist from Bristol) . Anyway
I hope everybody’s fine in Montreal! I send you big hugs! xoxo
Stephen Shellen
Oh hey there!! Yeah I know Banksy! Anyway sorry, I never even saw your other post about Guru Of Sad! Thanks. Just was in some festivals with a new film. Wish you were here, winter’s coming again, oh well. Time to be inside and write more maybe. How are you?? Still working on the Tug boat?? Let me know what you are up to. Living in Grenoble still? Lots to tell you. Hugs and kisses, MISS YOU!!!
10/27/14, 6:43 AM
Well, I worked all summer on tug boat, but now the season is over, so I’m free to do what I want! Right now, I’m living in Grenoble with my girlfriend, but I’ll live the country the 4th of November with my fiend Thibault who just finished his Art school. Lily finished her cook job too, and she’s thinking about a new place to go! We will be back in Montreal! If your new film is on internet, let me know the name of it
All my hugs for you Dad! xoxox
12/21/14, 10:39 AM
Hey Dad! A bih and happy hello from Bristol! As you can see on the pictures, I am now living on a peniche! The city is great, I’m just working, and my girlfriend is coming the 26. I hope everything is going great in Montreal too. It is probably freeezing over there. Sending hugs to , Kim and Moochie and you! Love xoxoxox
12/23/14, 2:56 AM
Stephen Shellen
What are you doing there??Are you on vacation now, wow! Haha, a peniche, yeah, they are great to live on! Lots of love back at you!!
12/23/14, 1:36 PM
I am just living, enjoying life and working in a coffee to pay my rent! The city is really cool!
12/27/14, 12:36 AM
Stephen Shellen
Merry christmas !! Love that you are writing poetry!!! Love you!!
12/31/14, 8:33 PM
Stephen Shellen
I have a feeling that you are a great writer and I hope for the New year you do a book of poetry in Franglais. Hope you are having a good New Year, I miss you and Lily a lot!!! A lot a lot a lot!!!
1/1/15, 4:10 PM
Thank you Dad! I hope I ve got a feeling with the pen too! Happy new year! We miss you too!
Stephen Shellen
It is obvious to me at least, that you have that gift!! It is a wonderful gift, to spill words down, an exorcism in a way, a form of therapy with no fucking therapist. Your mind is alive, acute and best of all, original and interesting!! Just had to tell you this, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
3/14/15, 11:33 PM
Stephen Shellen
Why are you ignoring me, I love you and Lily so much
3/16/15, 1:27 PM
I m not ignoring you Dad! A lot of stuff happen recently! (having to girlfriend, one in France, one in England, and I had to leave one). I’m going back to Bristol where I live since 4 month, and I’m thinking about trying a life in Canada! How are you?
3/16/15, 3:34 PM
Stephen Shellen
I miss you and think of you and Lily all the time
4/18/15, 5:40 PM
Hey Dad, how are you in Montreal? Thinking of you a lot! xoxo
4/23/15, 5:30 PM
Stephen Shellen
Yup still in Montreal but this has been a very bad year. Hope you are great!!! Still in England??
4/24/15, 6:26 AM
Really? Why? Yes I am still in Bristol, England, living with my new girlfriend. At least I hope the worst is behinh for you.
4/24/15, 7:52 AM
Stephen Shellen
no
4/24/15, 9:54 AM
come on what is going on? I am going to start worry about that!
6/17/15, 5:40 PM
Hey Dad! I wish you a happy birthday! It would be better if we could be there, eating a cake with you, and evenually smoking a joint! I hope bad things are getting better since last time we talk! Have a great year. We both love you very much!!
6/19/15, 10:59 PM
Stephen Shellen
Oh geez Morg, yeah….wish I could express it all but it will just upset you,
6/20/15, 1:25 PM
Stephen Shellen
LOVE YA
6/21/15, 6:44 AM
Love you too! Just to let you know, I’m back from england since 20 days and I am living this afternoon to road trippin in spain with my girl! I’m not afraid to get upset, so you can tell me! Otherwise, keep in mind that we love you dad!
8/17/15, 8:29 PM
Stephen Shellen
Almost gave up on everything but damAND WHO THREATENED YOU!! n it, I LOVE YOU MORGAN so much!! I still do not understand what happened to my life, I hate you mother and Velina…..but I love you! 20 years and ALL i EVER WANTED TO KNOW IS WHO BEAT UP YOUR MOTHER AND WHO THREATENED YOU!!! wOW!! WHAT THE THE FUCK!! WHO WERE THESE POWERFUL CCOCKSUCKERS??? i hATE FL0RENCE , she could have told me, the cunt
Stephen Shellen
Your birthday, WAS AMAZING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bEST DAY OF MY LIFE!! nO SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stephen Shellen
mY CAREER is pretty much finished, geez wizz, Florence is so POWERFUL. Hate that cunt! Everything in my life have been destroyed so sorry if I am your looser father but WTF! Tell whoever did this to me to out a bullet in my head, cause my God, I only cared about you and Lily and all these years later, what , because Florence was a prostitute or an assassin, just too much. LOVE YOU MORGAN…………..so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! forever! Fuck it!!
9/8/15, 11:44 AM
Hey Dad! Sorry that i didn’t answer i didn’t know what to say, for me you’re ma dad and she’s my mom. I love you both, that’s it, even if i know it has been very hard for you all that shit! Anyway, is you year getting better for you? What is going on? I just mooved in Rennes with my girlfriend, starting street art in the city! I senf you all my son’s love for his dad, and wish that bad things are ending for you. I’m thibking about mooving on the other continent next year! Love you daddy!
10/21/15, 12:41 PM
How are you Dad? I hope verything is alright in Montreal!
10/27/15, 7:52 PM
Stephen Shellen
So cute that photo
11/9/15, 4:11 PM
Stephen Shellen
We are not in Montreal.
Stephen Shellen
Sorry had to leave and all I have said is because of whatever happened all those years ago. I am sorry I let you and Lily down. I only wanted to find out who had beat up your mother and who had threatened you. Lots was said in those last days before . I am also sick to death of Florence trying to convince people I beat her. I NEVER beat your mother!!She has triued to convince ANYONE of that the last 20 years. FED UP!! KIm is okay, Mooshie is very sick right now. I am currently moving around….wish I could see you guys . I have to say much much more but not now.
11/13/15, 11:30 AM
Hey Dad. Do not be sorry, we know you didn’t let us down! Lily and I, we know you didin’t give up, so please do not feel guilty! You seem to have a very dark time, between the past and the future… I feel bad for mooshie and I guess you are really sad about his sickness. I don’t know where you are living right now, but I hope it is ok. Just know that we love you, and please, don’t feel guilty! You’re awesome We’ll talk later and we’ll find time to meet again! Take care xoxox
We’ll talk later and we’ll find time to meet again! Take care xoxox11/17/15, 12:26 PM
Stephen Shellen
Thank you for that. Just know I NEVER choose this life that I have lived the past 20 years. I only wanted to find out who had beat your mom and threatened you. You may not remember much of what had happened to you then. Florence had warned me back in 95 that she knew some very powerful people I that I would loose everything. She also told me that no one would ever believe me. I didn’t believe it was possible. I kept trying for you and Lily. I caught her trying to drown a kitten in front of you two. I stopped her and saved the kitten’s life. When this all started I was followed tracked death threatened…never knowing why back then. Everything I tried to do was undone. I was finished almost immediately with the film business . Agents in canada and the U.S told me to “forget about your kids and maybe you’ll work again”. I refused. My partner in what became LIons Gate Entertainment, John Hardy, told me in early 96 to “forget about your kids or you’re dead”. I refused. The lies, the lies, what a joke. I also called the police when we were all on the farm and stopped Florence from leaving with a suitcase containing an itemized account of how to collect life insurance and not pay tax. Sorry but yes, you mother wanted to collect on my life!!
Stephen Shellen
I only saw you and Lily for a total of about 8 days in 15 years up to you coming to Morocco.I don’t know what happened to you two, only that during most of those 25 years I was harassed continually for much of it. I have always tried to keep going, be positive and live in the present and the future but whatever the fuck she was involved in has affected everything I try to do. I ask people why are you here, why are you on this earth right now. I believe we all have some purpose. I would never have chosen to not be with you and Lily while you were growing up but I was on the run, financially ruined and HATED by all in the film industry. I know much more now about my intellectual property theft and rich people in the business trying to discredit me but your mother played a role. Yes, she was a prostitute but it is much more involved than just that. For many years I have tried to forgive her and imagine why she would do some of the things she did. She had left you guys with me that summer of 95 and had no plans to come back. See, you don’t remember much of those early years. I did most of the cooking back then for all of us. I was the caregiver. When you fell down some stairs she couldn’t pick you up, It as me who consoled you, giving you a bandage. You told me of men with mommy, that mommy was with those men, that mommy slept in the cabin art studio while adults were with you and Lily in the main farm house.I am only telling you a little so you understand why I was so worried about you and Lily.”Save the children from me” she had written in that letter I showed you in Morocco. Hopefully you can understand WHY I was so concerned for you both. As far as a future who knows. It seems that no matter what great art show or film or play I create it is always stopped or I am again attacked, harassed , lied about whatever. From that crazy October in 95 my life was forever changed and someone somewhere wants to make sure I will never be believed. After all these years, who gives a shit really. I mean, if anyone wants to move on it has been me. Kim has seen much of what I am describing. She knows me and my spirit. She knows how much I have always loved you and tried.
Stephen Shellen
We both wish we had money and that we could buy you plane tickets or help you out. We are broke at the moment. I ( again) was told to shut up about what happened by an agent. Funny that,, because in a job situation I don’t mention the crazy shit that happened to me. I am not that stupid. You and Lily we NOT a thing that a lost but my children. I guess back when this all started I was equipped to deal with some fucking spy game crap that started spinning around me. Ask yourself why would someone need to break into my safety box in a bank or any number of other shit that happens to me. Who is afraid of the truth coming out ….after ALL THESE YEARS??? Florence wanting to have me murdered…if true, then why did she get all the support?? Oh that brings up the money I put aside for her in France and the money I sent home from the film I did in the south of France. Florence took all of it yet complained I left her with no money!!! People around me back then thought I was some piece of shit. Yup, she warned me, “who do think people will believe, you or me”.
Stephen Shellen
In closing this out Morgan, I will tell you this. I HATE liars. Hate them. I have lived with lies for so long and I am tired of the bullshit. I have no reason to make up some crazy shit about being targeted if it wasn’t true. I don’t get followed and harassed anymore because I suppose the damage has been done. I couldn’t come and live in France all those years ago because I was on the run and broke plus i DIDN’T KNOW WHY I WAS TARGETED!! I thought eventually the truth would come out and it has in little bits and pieces. I was never violent with anyone because I was concerned that it would hurt my chances of seeing you and Lily. I never threw anyone up against a wall and demanded the truth, I honestly thought people would develop and conscience and allow me some dignity. My only regret has always been about you….all of you actually. Ironic as fuck that when I saw bruises on Florence’s face after coming back from California and poor little you telling me of men hitting mommy at the trailer at the gas station, it was Florence, your mom, that I wanted to protect!!! I wanted to save her from whatever she was involved in and it almost cost me my life, certainly my life with you two.
Stephen Shellen
also: Don’t worry too much about me. I survive. I am not some weak guy hiding in a corner, I never was. If the whole world wants me to die and shut up I will still survive because that is what is in my DNA. Strength comes in many different flavours, haha. The truth will set you free!! LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12/24/15, 11:29 AM
Hey Dad! Sorry I wait so long before giving an answer to your message. I’ve read it three times, and the first time, I have to admit that a tear get out of my brown eyes (the world is so unfair: Why couldn’t I have your blue electric eyes =p). You know, I have a lot of memories about Canada, far more than a lot of people. I remember that you were amazing with us, and that you were a happy man with us, as much as we were happy childrens with you! I know you love us, and that you didn’t abandon us at all. And we love you, that’s for sure, and you need to know that to face all the bad things that can happen. I always knew our family story is not only white or only black:. I knew I couldn’t listen to all my mother’s stories like if it was the only truth: that’s why I cared so much to keep in touch with you. That’s why it has been so important to me to spent that week in marocco, and listen to your version of the story. The fact is that I am aware that you have been the one who suffered the most, fighting against injustice. The past is GREY for my point of view. There is mystery around us, and I know you want the truth. I want truth too, but maybe it has been better for us to grew up without knowing everything, just to build ourself without the feeling of an imposture from our mother. The story is too dark, and of course something is going wrong when I know there is that international kidnapping story (what the fuck?), and an interdiction to see you alone before we get 18 years old (WHAT THE FUCK?!): We all know you were not dangerous for us!!! Also, I get pissed off sometimes, because, they all know I am talking to you ( Flo, Kiyoshi etc..) . And I feel that there are uncomfortable with that, and sometimes, they make me feel like a traitor or something. Like if I had to choose “are you in our side or his side? be careful, he can be very persuasive” Fuck that shit. I’m on the love side, that’s it. Once, my mom let me know that she was afraid I tried to look at you: And I just answer “OF COURSE I WANT TO. He is someone everybody likes, living an artistic life and able, at 54 years old to go on a roadtrip without being afraid of loosing everything: that’s rock’n roll. What’s wrong with that? “. She agreed. Anyway, Flo rised us very well, and we had a happy childhood. How would have been our lifes if we were with you everyday? Probably amazing, but unfortunately, a creepy story “make it all grey”. The thing is we know you care about us, and it’s far more important that a father living with his kids without caring at all, right? It has been very difficult for all of us. And we all survive. I know you are not giving up. Lily and I, at least, we have that SHELLEN name, and we are fuckin proud of it. We like to think it’s a powerful name who gives strenght. Lily is a SHELLEN, a real one and so I am. We both love Dad! We know you’ve tried to keep us near to you!
It’s christmas today. It has been a while that I lived home, and after living in Bristol, UK, I’m living in Brittany (north-east) with my girlfriend. Tonight, I’m celebrating christmas with her family, which is something new for me! Anyway, I hope you’re gonna have a good moment tonight, I hope Kim is alright and that mooshie is not suffering too much. Big hugs from France and, well, merry christmas ! LOVE xoxox
12/24/15, 3:36 PM
Stephen Shellen
Oh Thanks Morg, that means the world to me!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy you will be experiencing Christmas this year. I always made a big deal out of it when you were little. Seeing you and Lily, your little eyes just huge as saucers when you saw the presents under the tree.LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4/29/16, 10:09 PM
Stephen Shellen
Any news??
Stephen Shellen
Kim’s mother died so we have been busy
4/30/16, 4:12 AM
Damn, sorry for her! Are you alright? And there is no big changement since January: well i broke my two front teeth in February, and it wasn’t funny at all ( it’s gonna cost me 3000 euros at least), and i’m not done with this shit, i still need to wait until september with my plastic teeth.. anyway, it will turn to a funny story one day. I’m working as an “acrobatic operator” in a forest, and i make sport as well since February! Also i’m looking into a cinema’s writting school in belgium!
well, wha about you dad? I know you were not living the best lately. Have you got any projects? Well send lily and i’s love to her! And take some by the way, of course
well, wha about you dad? I know you were not living the best lately. Have you got any projects? Well send lily and i’s love to her! And take some by the way, of course
4/30/16, 1:58 PM
Hey dad! Yes it is a a shame for my (wonderful) smile 
! But it is alright physically, i have some plastic teeth so we can not guess, even if i can’t bit in an apple. Well…
what about you? Are you back in Montreal or still in Ontario?
! But it is alright physically, i have some plastic teeth so we can not guess, even if i can’t bit in an apple. Well…what about you? Are you back in Montreal or still in Ontario?
4/30/16, 3:51 PM
Stephen Shellen
No we are in Ontario still. Lots to tell you, don’t know when I will be back in Montreal. Sure do miss you will write again when things settle down. Love Dad
4/30/16, 7:03 PM
Ok dad, take care both of you! Love!
6/17/16, 12:41 PM
Hey dad! Happy Birthday! i wish we were together with Lily to share a cake! well, how is the beginning of summer? i haven’t got any gifts to give exept my love !
!Stephen Shellen
Just running out but will message you later!! Love to you and Lily!!!! You made my day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love
6/20/16, 11:59 PM
Stephen Shellen
Love to you Morgan!! Thank for the love!!I have to tell you something you maybe already know….LOVE is the only thing that matters, I LOVE YOU!! I had a good birthday with friends. Lots of good food and laughs, miss you SO much!! Hope I can see you somehow soon
8/17/16, 9:46 AM
Stephen Shellen
Happy Birthday my fabulous great son!! The best guy on the planet!! I love love love you!
thanks Dad! Love you too!!
Stephen Shellen
Ha! What cha drinkin’ boy?
just coffee, after waking up in the middle of afternoon!
Stephen Shellen
what happened to our convversation? Damn!
haha i don’t know it seems you are using your account and kim’s acount!
Stephen Shellen
yeah, oh well. We are going camping today. Gonna find a cool spot next to a lake or a river and be one with nature.
sounds nice! Is mooshie still around?
Stephen Shellen
yeah, he still lives!! Little bastard won’t die, he just keeps getting better
he moves a little slower though and his eyes and ears don’t work so well
he is happy with our Gypsy life style though
aaaah this is a very good thing! You’re in Ontario right? I’ve seen your video about dark circles, and it was hilarious!!! Anyway, have a good camp dad, hugs for kim as well, and guess what, i love you too!
Stephen Shellen
12/25/16, 3:29 PM
Stephen Shellen
Merry Christmas Morgan wherever you are!! Love you!
12/25/16, 7:16 PM
thanks dad!Merry christmas to you! I’m in south of france for christmas and new year otherwise i’m stating in Bruxelles! Love to you, Kim and moochie! (by the way i’ve seen SPARK’s trailer, it seems awesoooome)
Stephen Shellen
I love you more than you know!! I will love you with my last breath!! Just absolutely love you Morgan Montana!!!!
3/6/17, 2:22 PM
Hey Dad! Just a message to know how are you? And Kim? I’m living in Brussels now, and i’m writing more than ever! Wish I ll see you pretty soon somewhere! Love you !
3/7/17, 11:48 AM
Stephen Shellen
Good, keep writing, I love it. What are you doing there? You working?
3/8/17, 12:47 PM
well I m taking opportunities in a capital city! I am doing some auditions as well, (i ve got a very tiny act in a movie for exemple monday, and an audition in a coffee theater saturday.) I m just getting focus on creative stuff while I have the money I earn in 2016! Lily is in south america right now, in Amazonia! What about you?
3/20/17, 2:30 PM
Hey Dad! Just wanted to let you know that I just got the main role in a theater piece in Brussels! Even if I grew up far from you, you had so much influence in my life and the choices I’ve done that I had to tell you about it. It’s not a big thing but it’s maybe the beginning of something new. Because this time I m getting paid to do something that really matters artistically
Love you, hope everything is alright for you! xoxo
Love you, hope everything is alright for you! xoxo
3/20/17, 5:03 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hey that is great! Theatre can be so much fun and you learn so much each night you perform.Yeah, maybe I did have some influence on you after all. A creative life is the only life for me!!! Love you so much. What kind of character are you playing??
Well, it is a funny piece. So the story takes place on Pitcairn Island, which is an island where there’s only fifty persons living. In the middle of Pacific Ocean, the nearest place being at 3000 thousands kilometers. So it is mainly consanguines peoples, far away from culture, and they are all alcolics, desperate and bored. The story turn around two friends, Jason and David ( david is the jaded one, and Jason is the stupid one: and I am playing Jason)
3/21/17, 3:03 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hahahahahaha!!! Oh man, sounds like fun, you are going to have a great time with this.
3/27/17, 8:06 PM
Stephen Shellen
These kinda things, if you really try to understand why that guy is the way he is, leads to self discovery. Acting is a great tool for understanding oursleves
4/3/17, 8:37 AM
4/3/17, 1:58 PM
damn, i just send that without intention with my phone inside my pocket!
4/3/17, 9:41 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hahaha, I kinda enjoyed the goofy stuff. Shit yeah, I love, I love you, I love Morgan. Always will, always have!! Your the best!
4/21/17, 6:48 PM
Stephen Shellen
How can I reach you mom Morg??
Well you can join her on her cellphone, at +33 664451767
4/22/17, 9:03 AM
Stephen Shellen
Thanks!And do you have her address in Monaco or where ever she is living? I just need to send her some papers
well she is still living in Coaraze, 830 chemin du calempaou. 06390 Coaraze Why do you want to reach her after all those years?
4/22/17, 4:21 PM
Stephen Shellen
Nothing serious Morgan I just need to let her know I am gonna marry Kim after all these years and I hope she is okay. Love ya Morgan, how is life in Brussels?? How did the theatre piece go?? Fucking theatre, sometimes it can pretty pretentious but not always. I have done some (like the play I wrote) that I loved. Velina is the queen for pretentious bullshit theatre and people treat her like a genius. Never told you, but back when I was like 27 I rewrote one of her plays because it was so stinking pretentious. Of course she gave me no credit. I never cared though.
4/23/17, 7:35 AM
Stephen Shellen
I hope i can see you and Lily again before too long. Is she still in South America?\
4/23/17, 11:51 AM
Oh you re gonna marry Kim? That s a goof thing Everything is ok in Brussels, i have a lot of friends, and i feel alive! I met a theater director who asked me to re-write the movie “La grand bouffe” for Theater. The script has to be finish in July which is an amazing opportunity to me! I hope it s gonna work! I had a very hard separation in January with my ex girlfriend who just ignores me now. From love to hate there’s just a fuckin step. So now I m just enjoying my single situation as fuck, and that s the good thing
Lily is still in south america with her boyfriend, and she ll be back in south of France by May! Right now she is in the caribbean for 10 days! I m very proud of her, she is a wondeful emancipate girl! I know Kiyoshi is in carabean as well, studing the last chapter of his medical studies to become neurosurgeon! I hope Lily and I can see you too!
Everything is ok in Brussels, i have a lot of friends, and i feel alive! I met a theater director who asked me to re-write the movie “La grand bouffe” for Theater. The script has to be finish in July which is an amazing opportunity to me! I hope it s gonna work! I had a very hard separation in January with my ex girlfriend who just ignores me now. From love to hate there’s just a fuckin step. So now I m just enjoying my single situation as fuck, and that s the good thing Lily is still in south america with her boyfriend, and she ll be back in south of France by May! Right now she is in the caribbean for 10 days! I m very proud of her, she is a wondeful emancipate girl! I know Kiyoshi is in carabean as well, studing the last chapter of his medical studies to become neurosurgeon! I hope Lily and I can see you too!
I hope you are both well in Canada! Love you!!
4/26/17, 9:19 PM
Stephen Shellen
LOVE YOU!! Sorry about the break up you went through. Writing a play, amazing. I have lots of suggestions about that, not your writing but approaching it and staying original which I am sure you have no problem doing, cause you are an original.
6/17/17, 7:41 AM
Happy birthday dad! Hugs from Brussel, everything is moving fast for me here (still doing theater, and I did hip hop music yesterday on a radio “radio panik”! Haha!) How are you? It is so sad that we never could be together to celebrate your birthday. I never had the occasion to give you a gift, make a photo around a cake or whatever 
Anyway, I love you Dad, that is probably a very good present right? Hope you ll have a better year than the previous one! Love xoxox
Anyway, I love you Dad, that is probably a very good present right? Hope you ll have a better year than the previous one! Love xoxox
Stephen Shellen
Thank you so much for that great message!! I love you!!
8/20/17, 1:39 AM
Stephen Shellen
happy belated birthday! It all seems so surreal! I was out of the loop for the last couple days. Love you
Stephen Shellen
Surreal is the best way to describe it, just fucking surreal. hope the day was great. When you were young, I had some amazing birthdays with you. One on the farm when I invited local people to come and you were so damn happy! Even then, even with your birthday, you always were cool with Lily. She wanted to be involved in your birthday and didn’t understand why Morgan was the centre of attention. she shared with her that day.
12/25/17, 9:37 AM
Hey Dad ! Well it has been a loong time i didn t send a message! Many things happened since, 2017 is a year of change ( i m definitively living in brussel, building a jazz and hip hop studio project for spring as the “JazzHop” for name. I m also gonna be the goldfather of a little girl who will be born in april: yes, that’s it, everybody’s starting to have kids around us!). Lily is still living in Nice, but she s going to work as a cook on a boat in Miami for two month! And my mom has been fired from her job, not able to pay the rent she quit the house we grew up in. Now she s living totally lost in france’s asshole at her sister’s house, between nothing and cows!
Anyway, i m making it short. What about you? And Kim? What are you doing recently?
You know that of you go for a trip in Europe, I ll be able to have you home here!
Love you, have a nice christmas (i m alone home with a girl and her dog, drinking coffee and wine and that s kind of cool ) Thinking avoit you dad!
Anyway, i m making it short. What about you? And Kim? What are you doing recently?
You know that of you go for a trip in Europe, I ll be able to have you home here!
Love you, have a nice christmas
(i m alone home with a girl and her dog, drinking coffee and wine and that s kind of cool ) Thinking avoit you dad!12/25/17, 8:28 PM
Stephen Shellen
I Love you Morgan, so glad to hear from you. Yes, Kim and I are fine. Spend last night with her family but i still miss you and Lily and I hope you know, both of you, how much I love you. I don’t have my other fan page(that I would message Lily from) So please tell her I love her. Wow, jazz and hip hop, nice combo!!
4/27/18, 12:35 PM
Hey dad! Hope you’re well! Tell me, i ve seen that we can rent your movie, is there a link can send me? I d love to watch it!
4/27/18, 6:55 PM
Stephen Shellen
Wow, yeah sure, just go to my website or I can send you a free link if it is still up. Easiest is the website but I don’t want you to have to pay. I know there is way to send it to you for free but if don’t how. If you don’t mind paying that is best. I can’t wait til you watch it and tell me what you think. Let me know the link works . Miss you like crazy!!! https://www.stephenshellenberger.com/
Stephen Shellenberger
Stephen Shellenberger
stephenshellenberger.com
Don t worry i m full or Money, i don t mind to pay, i juste want to watch it as soon as i Can
4/27/18, 11:48 PM
Stephen Shellen
Man, you look great, my frenchman son!! Yeah, if you don’t mind it is 3.99 US. Just go to my website. That is the best version of my film anyway so it is best to see it there. How is Belgium?? Are you happy?? Do you have a great girlfriend??
Or here at Vimeo. It is the best resolution of the film https://vimeo.com/ondemand/thespark
Watch The Spark Online | Vimeo On Demand
A beautiful experimental film about a man’s journey down the rabbit hole. Once you watch this film you will never see the world in quite the same way.
vimeo.com
Let me know what you think after!!!!
Kim and I would both love to talk to you…maybe tomorrow? You’ll see Kim in it, she’s great
4/28/18, 12:42 PM
Stephen Shellen
Let’s smoke a joint
Ahaha I ll let you know when i m avaible, i m soooo buisy! I m working right now in my bar
Stephen Shellen
Okay, I’ll let you go, just curious if you watched the film??
Stephen Shellen
Not yet i ll do it monday or tuesday night!
Stephen Shellen
5/3/18, 10:22 PM
Stephen Shellen
Have you seen it yet?? I got a fabulous review about it!
I know! I haven’t yet i m having a very busy week (i manage a bar, my girlfriend and i just separate last sunday and i m also very occupied with the hip hop/jazz project! So i m rarely home before 4 am and it isn’t the best time to watch my father’s movie. But i ll do it as soon as i can , i know there is very good critics about it so i m excited!!
Stephen Shellen
That would be great!! Sorry to hear about you and your girlfriend. Shit, I hope you find a really great girl that loves you. We all need that. Love to you. here is a review, think you’ll like it https://medium.com/@thomas.mcfarlan/the-spark-art-film-debuts-online-stephen-shellens-tour-de-force-on-post-9-11-surveillance-4a13709ae11d
“The Spark” Art Film Debuts Online — Stephen Shellen’s Tour-de-Force on Post 9/11 Surveillance
“What if your worst fears become your world, and no one believes a word you say…”, reads the poster headline for this beautifully crafted…
medium.com
Yea don t worry, it was a short story but it had to end at some point! Alright i ll have a look!! Love to you and Kim for Brussels!
From*
Stephen Shellen
Stephen Shellen
Mooshie died, I don’t know if I told you! Miss the little fucker
5/4/18, 8:10 AM
Oh damn! I m so sad for you! I m not that suprised about it because i was gettong really old. The good thing is that he has been loved by you both, which is very precious in this world!
5/4/18, 10:50 AM
Stephen Shellen
Thanks Morgan! Yeah, he sure was loved.
5/13/18, 7:39 PM
Alright let’s watch it now!
5/13/18, 9:11 PM
Stephen Shellen
Fan fucking Tastic!!! can’t wait to hear back!!
Yeaaaah
I just finished it
I’m prouuud
Well it is really dark, and it all get darker all along. At some point of the movie, we’ll start feeling with you (the moment Michael starts hearing voices, and the telephone ringing in his head, while you even play bass on the voices). And I just smiled when I’ve seen Kim saying “let’s somke a joint” like you told me one week ago
anyway, congratulations
The movie is still rent for three days, I’m gonna send the link to Lily as well
Stephen Shellen
Oh man oh man, I am so happy that you liked it and understood it!!
Stephen Shellen
Stephen Shellen
I’ll make a copy and send a DVD to you!
One for Lily too!
I think it the kind of film where after, people have a lot of discussions about it! Everyone ‘feels’ it slightly differently and my ending is left for the viewer to have their own idea of what they saw.
Haha wel, that’s nice, but the adress of Coaraze does’nt exist anymore. Lily still lives in Nice in a flat, and as you know I’m in Brussel!
Yea! The subject turns so much around reality and “sci fi”
It just bring questions somehow
Stephen Shellen
Good I can send it to the embassies maybe, haha!! I’ll send copies wherever you want!
Should have dedicated the film to you 2! It was in heart made for you 2 as well as others
had a kinda cool review…don’t know if you saw this https://medium.com/@thomas.mcfarlan/the-spark-art-film-debuts-online-stephen-shellens-tour-de-force-on-post-9-11-surveillance-4a13709ae11d
“The Spark” Art Film Debuts Online — Stephen Shellen’s Tour-de-Force on Post 9/11 Surveillance
“What if your worst fears become your world, and no one believes a word you say…”, reads the poster headline for this beautifully crafted…
medium.com
Alright i m gonna watch it!
5/15/18, 1:45 PM
Stephen Shellen
In the comments I wrote this. I just want you to know i would NEVER do anything to try to hurt you or Lily. If I seem obsessed over what happened so many years ago it is because the weird shit never went away. I never recovered my life and most important, no one could convince me to forget about you two. I love love love you, more than you will ever know! I am so proud of you and yeah, a lot pissed off that we didn’t have a chance to be around each other for all your young formative years. May 15 Very good insights Thomas! Thanks so much. Boy, reading through it is surreal. I find myself wondering, “My God, was this my life, did this really happen?” My children, were taken yes. What initially started this nightmare was that I came back to a farm I owned outside of Orangeville Ontario to discover bruises on my wife’s(at the time) face. My children told me of men hitting mommy. A short time later, my young 4 year old son was crying and I recorded a conversation with him in which he told me that he could not talk to me, that a man was going to hurt him if he talked to his daddy. That kicked into gear a kind of surveillance I had no idea was possible.Around this same time I was starting a production company with a lawyer in Vancouver Canada. He was adamant that we call the company Lionsgate and our initial paperwork reflected that. I was sent to France to star in a film with Lorraine Bracco even though I had pleaded with an agent that I couldn’t work due to what was going on. I filed with a lawyer to prevent my children being taken out of country. She filed in the wrong city(highly unlikely this was a mistake), the children were taken. Death threats and harassment increased. the goal, make me appear unstable if I talked about what was going on i.e. break ins, followed 24/7, night calls, death threats and everyone pulling away. Agents in Hollywood and Canada would tell me to forget about my children and maybe I would work again. In early 1996 I met with John A Hardy, my partner in Lionsgate. He told me,” forget about my kids or you’re dead”. He denied having started Lionsgate with me and by then, after repeated break-ins, including 3 safety box breakins at banks, all paperwork for the company were disappeared, along with screenplays I had written and treatment ideas. What my children had to do with my career is still, to this day, a mystery to me. p.s. I never forgot about my children. I talk to them on occasion and as they were very young when all this transpired, they have no memory of it. They are wonderful adults now and I don’t know, to this day, why they were threatened or what happened to them. “forget about your kids” It still haunts me.
6/16/18, 1:19 AM
Stephen Shellen
This one’s for you!! Love you so much, never will not love you! You know, I know you do, that feeling when you lie in bed(hehe) and you can’t fall so what you do is you pretend to be dreaming. You make up your own dream and pretend it is a sleeping one. Well, this is about Montana Coyote. He was a part of the pack and they, the elders, saw him as being a future leader in their gang. He excelled at all the early stuff they teach young coyotes and was considered a future prize. He really wanted t go along with the group think and saw himself as a true coyote, committed to the plan. He mastered all their drills and they could see unlimited potential from him.Up until his teenage years he was the perfect gang member, the perfect Montana roamer.He could hunt and kill better than any in his class and sneaky, shit, he almost reinvented sneaky. A deer, hanging back and and waiting for his posse, well Montana could sniff that out out and use that crazy ability of surprise before any other deer caught wind of it. Montana looked real good too. Late night , early morning, him striding across a Montana sunset, shit, it was a thing of beauty! Others of his class wanted to emulate him, copy him, that is how cool he was. It wasn’t just his silky way of walking either, no, it was this thing, this undesirable thing. Effortless I guess is the best way to describe it. Anyway, the teen years set in(for a coyote I think that is about 1-1 /2 years old, and Montana starting looking around, wondering, was this really the life for him. He noticed the wolves, arch enemies of course, but how they stuck together and they REALLY knew how to herd, they weren’t just scavengers. Course, any wolf pack wants nothing to do with a coyote. See, now I have to be real careful here as not to offend the coyotes that most people love and respect, but Montana, it wasn’t just that he liked wolves, no, he liked being an animal and felt ALL animals were kinda in the same family. Of course, coyotes, wolves, cougars are creatures, bad ass creatures feared creatures and they devour prey. They are carnivorous. It’is in their nature. Yeah, but Montana, he looked outside that box. He started to recognize that even though they had their teeth and nature told them how they had to be, he questioned all of that. Killing just for that salacious appetite was too pedestrian or too easy, I guess. He still killed, he still sucked off a cougar kill and like the scavengers they are, yeah, he was coyote. but all these other feelings flooded him. What if….and what if I did…or what if I thought this? Eventually at around 3 years old, early adulthood for a coyote, he left. He just left. No sign to anyone, no pissing on a tree to warn them, no sad eyes to his young girlfriend (now pregnant with his offspring, he wandered off. The thing is coyotes travel in packs, that what gives them theor jiuce, their hunting skills and it is how they survive and travel. But Montana left. He is still alone, out near Livingstone (temporarily but I’ll get into that). What is amazing and crazy is that he met others like him. Oh sure, his life was in constant danger in the beginning, but he learned to navigate on his own, without the help of the gang. He met a bear, who had split for her tribe, a duck, sweet fellow and very courageous for a duck. He also met and almost fell in love with Courtesy, a deer, who was very kind to him but firm. (Deer get a bad rap, man, they are very courageous and cool) Montana is now in Idaho and he still visits Montana. He has no regrets about leaving and most animals now, almost instinctively, know he is an independent and not to be messed with. That’s right, he kinda won their respect, the animals, hell all the animals, cause he went out on his own. I know I know, you wanna know if he still eats others, is still carnivorous. To answer honestly, yes he does. But he tries not to take advantage or make a kill for the sake of it. He also learned he can live on berries and all kinds of stuff for weeks and doesn’t have to hunt non stop. Okay, left the best for last because I think this is great. Montana, back when he first left, encountered a wolf, actually a pack of them but she was in that gang. Te two of them have become VERY close and Montana, never a joiner, meets her on the sly. He is hoping one day soon the two of them are going to head back to Idaho(she is mostly in Montana) and with Montana, even if it doesn’t work out, he has somehow figured that even that is just another learning experience. \ I am telling you, if you ever met him, or more percisely, if you could ever communicate with him, you would be blown away. I do, just like his cub mates when he was with the coyote clan… yeah, I admit, I wish I was like him. This is the dream I was making up before I went to sleep tonight. I didn’t go to sleep because it was too exciting and I had to write it down. I is, I think anyway, kinda about my son, Morgan Montana McKeen Shellen. Hope t didn’t bore you Goodnight, I got it off my chest
Stephen Shellen
Made some corrections, this one is better! You know, I know you do, that feeling when you lie in bed and you can’t fall so what you do is you pretend to be dreaming. You make up your own dream and pretend it is a sleeping one. Well, this is about Montana Coyote. He was a part of the pack and they, the elders, saw him as being a future leader in their gang. He excelled at all the early stuff they teach young coyotes and was considered a future prize. He really wanted t go along with the group think and saw himself as a true coyote, committed to the plan. He mastered all their drills and they could see unlimited potential from him.Up until his teenage years he was the perfect gang member, the perfect Montana roamer.He could hunt and kill better than any in his class and sneaky, shit, he almost reinvented sneaky. A deer, hanging back and waiting for his posse, well Montana could sniff that out and use that crazy ability of surprise before any other deer caught wind of it. Montana looked real good too. Late night , early morning, him striding across a Montana sunrise, shit, it was a thing of beauty! Others of his class wanted to emulate him, copy him, that is how cool he was. It wasn’t just his silky way of walking either, no, it was this thing, this indescribable thing. Effortless I guess is the best way to describe it. Anyway, the teen years set in(for a coyote I think that is about 1-1 /2 years old, and Montana starting looking around, wondering, was this really the life for him. He noticed the wolves, arch enemies of course, but how they stuck together and they REALLY knew how to herd, they weren’t just scavengers. Course, any wolf pack wants nothing to do with a coyote. See, now I have to be real careful here as not to offend the coyotes that most people love and respect, but Montana, it wasn’t just that he liked wolves, no, he liked being an animal and felt ALL animals were kinda in the same family. Of course, coyotes, wolves, cougars are creatures, bad ass creatures feared creatures and they devour prey. They are carnivorous. It’s in their nature. Yeah, but Montana, he looked outside that box. He started to recognize that even though they had their teeth and nature told them how they had to be, he questioned all of that. Killing just for that salacious appetite was too pedestrian or too easy, I guess. He still killed, he still sucked off a cougar kill and like the scavengers they are, yeah, he was coyote. but all these other feelings flooded him. What if….and what if I did…or what if I thought this? Eventually at around 3 years old, early adulthood for a coyote, he left. He just left. No sign to anyone, no pissing on a tree to warn them, no sad eyes to his young girlfriend (now pregnant with his offspring, he wandered off. The thing is coyotes travel in packs, that what gives them theor jiuce, their hunting skills and it is how they survive and travel. But Montana left. He is still alone, out near Livingstone (temporarily but I’ll get into that). What is amazing and crazy is that he met others like him. Oh sure, his life was in constant danger in the beginning, but he learned to navigate on his own, without the help of the gang. He met a bear, who had split for her tribe, a duck, sweet fellow and very courageous for a duck. He also met and almost fell in love with Courtesy, a deer, who was very kind to him but firm. (Deer get a bad rap, man, they are very brave and cool) Montana is now in Idaho and he still visits Montana. He has no regrets about leaving and most animals now, almost instinctively, know he is an independent and not to be messed with. That’s right, he kinda won their respect, the animals, hell all the animals, cause he went out on his own. I know I know, you wanna know if he still eats others, is still carnivorous. To answer honestly, yes he does. But he tries not to take advantage or make a kill for the sake of it. He also learned he can live on berries and all kinds of stuff for weeks and doesn’t have to hunt non stop. Okay, left the best for last because I think this is great. Montana, back when he first left, encountered a wolf, actually a pack of them but she was in that gang. Te two of them have become VERY close and Montana, never a joiner, meets her on the sly. He is hoping one day soon the two of them are going to head back to Idaho(she is mostly in Montana) and with Montana, even if it doesn’t work out, he has somehow figured that even that is just another learning experience. \ I am telling you, if you ever met him, or more percisely, if you could ever communicate with him, you would be blown away. I do, just like his cub mates when he was with the coyote clan… yeah, I admit, I wish I was like him. This is the dream I was making up before I went to sleep tonight. I didn’t go to sleep because it was too exciting and I had to write it down. I is, I think anyway, kinda about my son, Morgan Montana McKeen Shellen. Hope t didn’t bore you Goodnight, I got it off my chest
6/16/18, 11:21 PM
Well dad, i just came back form work. It is 5:15 am here, and I honestly tell you this one of the greatest message you ever sent me: I mean, I’m almost 27 now, a real adult with real responsabilities, projects, leading people with me (and of course fears sometimes because of that), and I just felt exited like a child reading a story from ma dad. It didin’t happen a lot in our lives, we missed that in a way and I know I would have several like that if I had been raised through my teenagehood with you, but just right now, I felt like a little boy listening a story from his father, mixing his own story and the potential future of his son. Well it really feels good
I love the coyotte concept, maybe because, just like you, I ve always loved canids basically. Well i don’t know, I’m just happy to read that. And obviously, today is your birthday. I wish i was there to see you blow some candles on cake cooked by Lily! Happy birthday then, I’m far away, but I never forget about you. I ve missed you some much but it also build who I am: able to face life with the bad and the good in this world. The chance and the misfortune. I feel strong inside, and I’ll do what I can to give a meaning to my time on earth. And you’ll always be a part of it. You ve got childrens, and you can sleep comfortabily, because they are all happy down here Love you xoxox
Love you xoxoxStephen Shellen
Oh man, you made my night! I just got in from work too and this makes me so happy! Morgan Montana, one in a million!!
8/16/18, 10:31 PM
Stephen Shellen
Hey, LOVE YOU!!! Happy birthday!! Greatest day of my life the day you were born!! I LOVE YOU!!! Montana Coyote!
Stephen Shellen
8/29/18, 7:40 PM
Hey Dad. Something happen and i have to tell you about it: last October i had a shory relation ship with a girl of 20 years old. About one month, we kept seeing each other and at the end, while she wanted to be my girlfriend, i just stoped the relation because i wasn’t into it. Even if she s a really nice girl, intelligent and sweet, i was living my bartender life, and i wanted to enjoy my sexlife (you know what i mean).
Last 16 of august, for my birthday she talked to me: a little girl was born the 12 of July, and i was supposed to be the father. I wasn’t ready, she hide the pregnancy but whatver: i asked for a paternity test and i had the answee today: I m the father of a little girl, named Leonore. I m gonna meet the baby this week and talk about what s going to happen: even if i didn’t want it, i think i m ok to exist in her life. In a way, it s the kind of thing that happen between you and Velina. Now I m 27, just like you by the time and i m in the same situation. I just learn about i still need to figure it out but obviously i had to tell my father: you re now a grandfather
Last 16 of august, for my birthday she talked to me: a little girl was born the 12 of July, and i was supposed to be the father. I wasn’t ready, she hide the pregnancy but whatver: i asked for a paternity test and i had the answee today: I m the father of a little girl, named Leonore. I m gonna meet the baby this week and talk about what s going to happen: even if i didn’t want it, i think i m ok to exist in her life. In a way, it s the kind of thing that happen between you and Velina. Now I m 27, just like you by the time and i m in the same situation. I just learn about i still need to figure it out but obviously i had to tell my father: you re now a grandfather
I love you, and i had to tell you. I ll send you a picture of her and I as soon as i can. I m kind of freaking out a bit, but well, shellen’s blood is running through her veins now.
There you ve got a first photo of Leonore and her mom
haha she seems totally uncomfortable on the photo but whatever, I had to send you a picture of her face
Also that s the mom, a flamish girl named Gudrun (what a weird name i agree haha).
Anyway, now you know. I won t raised the child, but i ll kept in touch with her for sure. I ll let you know
Have a great day now
Xoxoxo
8/29/18, 10:36 PM
Stephen Shellen
HOLY COW!!! What?? Oh man, I don’t know what to say!! Congratulations. I mean, holy shit!!!
12/10/18, 9:55 PM
Stephen Shellen
Wow! just watched the old film Gaslight. Wow, wow wow. Your momma wasn’t my gems however, just my screenplay ideas, want to se photo of my grand baby if you have one. Yeah, just crazy, what make Florence so evil??
23 years and your very powerful mom has completely destroyed all hope of a normal life. Evil rewards evil. I have tried so hard. Unreal that after all these years…WTF. Guess evil controls this world but not the afterlife Pray for your child.
Stephen Shellen
You, me and Lily always accepted that Florence had no feelings, for birthdays, Christmas, all of that. But she can’t feel. You know I am right. My problem, my enemy, was that I always cared. It cost me everything.,What a fucked up joke. You catre, you get fucked. Wish I knew then, what I know now. God knows. I know you are not into God, but no way, I could have made it. I still worry about you and Lily. That thing with Lily in Corseca. Just send me a photo of your daughter….or don’t. I’ll tell ya though Morgan, I am far from crazy. Gas light, watch it
Stephen Shellen
Please God. protect that little one!!
I ll answer tomorrow when i ll have time to paternity test came back positive, so i m the father indeed !
paternity test came back positive, so i m the father indeed !
Weird face on her but she s very very cute, i haven t see her a lot, it s complicate but i ll explain to you
I will watch gas light then
Stephen Shellen
I love you soooo much Morgan.
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whhy is everyone so afiad of tellliny me wahy
why
it has been 23 yeats
12/11/18, 12:02 PM
Stephen Shellen
Look at you 2!!!Showed Kim
12/18/18, 1:15 PM
Stephen Shellen
Morgan, can yo give me your address?
Hey dad! Sorry i didn’t answer properly, life s going fast here i didn’t find a time just for me!
But i m living on:
But i m living on:
Rue Keyenveld, 9,
1050 ixelles
Region Bruxelles capitale
Belgium
12/18/18, 9:08 PM
Stephen Shellen
Love you!!! So much! Love to Lily too!!
12/25/18, 12:17 PM
Stephen Shellen
Merry Christmas to you and Lily!! I love you!!!
Thank you Dad!!! Merry Christmas to you and Kim as well! Lily s actually in Philippines right now but i ll let her know
1/3/19, 2:09 PM
Stephen Shellen
Love you, trying to send something to you but we had a mail strike and I hope it is okay now. Sorry I am late for Christmas
Hey don t worry it still so kind!! Love you too, happy new year by the way, let me know how are you! And send me some pictures of you both there in canada!
1/17/19, 11:59 AM
Hey Dad! I just received all your presents for Lily, Leonore and I! Wow i m so happy, i LOVE the paintings, i m gonna do proper wooden frame of them and put it near other paintings in my apartment! Thank you do much, Lily s actually here in brussel for one week so i ll be able to give her her presents! And also to my daughter as soon as i ll see her
Stephen Shellen
Fan fucking Tastic!!!! Cool, happy Lily is there as well!! Glad you figured it out that those prints are for your Daughter!! Just great. Love you both SO MUCH!!
8/18/19, 12:30 PM
Stephen Shellen
How did your birthday go?? I wasn’t near a computer for a couple days so sorry for the late “Happy Birthday”.
Stephen Shellen
Wondering if you are still in Brussels? Have you been hanging out with Jean Claude Van Damn? I bet you are getting buff
8/18/19, 5:11 PM
Ahahah nooo way! I m too good at karate,i don t need any lessons
But right now i m road trippin with my girlfriend in a little van so it s so cool! I ll be back in brussel on the 5th of september,back to projects,work etc etc.. i m taking back energy and inspiration right now!
What aboug you,how are you?
But right now i m road trippin with my girlfriend in a little van so it s so cool! I ll be back in brussel on the 5th of september,back to projects,work etc etc.. i m taking back energy and inspiration right now!
What aboug you,how are you?
That s me and her, that tou can put a picture on us! Also my grandfather died two weeks ago so we were all ma motger side’s family reeunited after 7 years
And that s a recent painting i did as well. I m still trying to find the good way to paint, my own style,i don t paint that much, as you know i m much more into writing but well!
I love the green/blue color because it s always so confusing. Some think it s blue, sole others think it s green, it s so cool!
8/18/19, 7:55 PM
Stephen Shellen
I am loving that painting you did!! Really! I have a pile of ideas but will wait. Just understand I think this is great. Funny but you and I both love written words in English and French. Something about the uniqueness of how everyone writes. Kim likes it too! Yeah, very cool.
12/10/19, 9:32 AM
And also, just for kidding, there’s a fake tv generic we did with friends here to promote our friends bar
You might find me in it!
You might find me in it!
Also, how are you? I ve been looking at your profile, such a european hipster with the beard !
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Chez Ta Mère is with Marius Junot and 9 others. Chez Ta Mère et ses copains vous invitent à leur Nouvel An hors du temps. Alors sors ta plus belle tenue 80’s-90’s et viens te trémousser: NYE: Chez Ta Mère Et Ses Copains, un évènement hors du temps Chez Ta Mère
Stephen Shellen
Hahaha!! That fake laugh, love it
12/24/19, 4:33 PM
12/24/19, 9:08 PM
Mery christmas dad !!
There s Leonore, she s getting older! Unfortunately christmas will be without her. It is complicated, u should call you one of these days to tell you everything about that story! Merry christmas to you and Kim! Xoxox
12/25/19, 3:14 PM
Stephen Shellen
So cute!!!!
JAN 16, 2020, 12:49 PM
Stephen Shellen
Gee i hope you get a chance to spend time with her. Hopefully her mother is not a nutcase and is fair. How is everything else? I have a question, did you or Lily or Florence ever see Brad Pitt in the south of France? Florence had been close to him when we stayed at that motel in Livingston(he was right next to us in the next room) and she had planned a trip he was taking to Europe when he finished shooting the film. They spent a lot of time otgether as most my scnes, well, he wasn’t in them, just the one scene where I am drunk and go fishing, haha. Man the character I played was a big loser!!
JAN 18, 2020, 2:01 PM
Stephen Shellen
This is what happened to your father. Someone associated with your mother put this goon squad on me and if I talked about the continual (back then) tracking and following, well I looked like a mental case. I have lost everything, again, and all this because i wanted to PROTECT your mother and PROTECT you and Lily. My health isn’t great but I will not go quietly. Every single agent I ever had told me to , ” forget about your kids and maybe you will work again”. I never beat your mother, that is what she has been telling people for years. I was frustrated with Velina Houston and the never ending court appearances and yes, I was angry at times with your mother who never seemed to care. I supported her and you and Lily, Florence did not work, she had no residency to work. Why did she tell me she was a prostitute, I don’t know, but both you and Lily told me of men hitting mommy at the trailer. I showed you the motorhome we had on the farm. I asked if that is the trailer? No, you both said. I then drove you and Lily, to that gas station a few kilometres away and you both pointed to the trailer that sat next to the station.”that trailer”, you said. I said something like , “gee, it must be cold in there in the winter” and you said, “snow is outside but inside the trailer, it is nice and warm”. You went on to tell me that you and Lily were under the blankets when mommy was with the men”. That, and only that, caused me to go to Children’s Aid and the police. The irony of all this, is I told Florence I would get her help, buy her a condo (outside New York, where she wanted to live) and we would share custody. After that, I found that piece of paper where your mother wrote down ways to claim an inheritance(life insurance) and not pay tax on the capital gains by refinancing the money. The police had come to the farm just before. If I was ever beating your mother why did she not tell the police? Why when I took her to a marriage councilor did she not mention it? You think I did? I have been with Kim for 15 years, does she think I am violent like that? No. what is amazing is my last 24 years and blacklisted form the film industry …why?? I was working as a dishwasher now I work in the back of the kitchen. Everyday, with no exception, I think of you and Lily. When you were in France, Florence says she was an Enlish teacher but my children UNLEARNED french?? makes no sense. I have been drugged (3 occasions) beat up, left for dead, ALL because I wanted to know who beat her up and who broke in a hotel room and threatened you!!! Plus why oh why, would what happened in my personal life cause me to be blacklisted?/ I have no criminal record, other than i couldn’t pay bills because I was broke. Don’t feel bad for me, please, but all this because I loved you both and wanted to know what happened. I tell you, it is like a horror movie. Sadly now, people know what has happened to some people like me, that we aren’t CRaZy but had a team hired to harass us and make us appear mentally ill if ever we speak out. I have P.T.S.D. and yes, I am getting help for that but holy shit, what a mess!! By the way, in spite of all of this, I have never been diagnosed with any kind of mental disorder.Lastly, I will NEVER stop loving you, no matter what.
1Stephen Shellen
This is the article I hope you read. https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/harvey-weinsteins-army-of-spies
Harvey Weinstein’s Army of Spies
The film executive hired private investigators, including ex-Mossad agents, to track actresses and journalists.
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JAN 18, 2020, 3:34 PM
Stephen Shellen
Don’t ever feel ashamed to be my son. You know, they now do plays that try to replicate what i did with Lot Lizards, which is using both stage and screen. I have reinvented many things creatively. I had the number one short film from Canada, back in 2003?) with Clermond Ferrand who then took it all over the world. We made that for 55 dollars!!!!!Of course Canada tried to take credit for it, told them fuck off, we didn’t get a penny from you. My film, The Spark, hes nothing but great reviews, that too made with pennies from heaven. You are me, i am you. We both have a juice that many others do not. Galleries that have my art say I will most likely (in time) be the ONLY artist that is collectible. I have had some influences but in the last 24 years, creatively. I have only followed my heart, my gut impulse. Fuck the Brad Pitt’s of the world, they wish!! Of all my achievements it has only been my desire to figure out this shit show and be with you. I guess I could thank Florence because I became so much more than just another dumb Hollywood actor. This forced me to become who I am and even it seems like I lost, then fuck it. You don’t know this, but I hid out in Chicoutimi in Northern Quebec. I mentored and taught Sebastien Pilote how to write scripts. He won the Cannes festival award for best screenplay a couple years ago. th only reason I ever made a short film or any other was because of you and Lily. I could ive a flying fuck otherwise. With Florence, I wanted the truth, so I could forgive her and she could forgive me for my anger or whatever she thought I did. I am tellin you, ask Kim. Message her and she has known me since I was 16! She and her children are my family, I have no one else. My own mother and sister never were the same after all this began 24 years ago. The whole family disowned me, which is I guess okay. Also know that your family, on my father’s side, were Mennonites which maybe explains how I could survive and keep going while living outside on the Venice Beach Boardwalk. We are survivors Morgan, of anything that is thrown at us. Speaking your truth will be tough, most people are zombies. I know you don’t yet believe in God but having the Mennonite connection is kind of cool. They do their own thing and are, for the most part, off grid. My heart was and is broken for never known what scumbag your mother was involved with, did this to me. The irony of it all is that I started off as an adult male as a male model, someone people maybe perceived as vacuous. NO ONE ever encouraged me to be an actor as models were considered empty. I took that initial rejection as “I will prove them wrong” but after all this, and honestly, most people realize what fucktards Hollywood people are now, that I will show them. Didn’t suck cock, didn’t compromise my way up that ladder but ,my God, others sure as fuck did. This world got duped into thinking Hollywood actors were something special and that whole system around it, agents, managers etc etc, is fucking scum. These people are polite puppets and I WILL NEVER BE A POLITE PUPPET. God bless you, I love you and sorry for the long message but honestly, next to Kim, you are all I have in my heart today. I just fucking love you. Give me a chance to forgive your mother, I don’t care what she did or said, I just want to have a reason to keep going
Stephen Shellen
p.s. it isn’t a crime, but Pitt was a cock sucker. One thing I know about are the faggots in Hollywood. These movie stars, get their big break by sucking cock. When Pitt first went to Hollywood he stayed at a gay guy’s house and take it from me, an ex model and actor, non of this is for free
JAN 18, 2020, 7:30 PM
Waw dad!yea that s a lot, i ll answer later, always in a rush around here! I love you too
MAR 23, 2020, 2:16 PM
Stephen Shellen
I hope you are okay.Times like this I wish we were together. My health isn’t great right now
MAR 24, 2020, 9:31 AM
Hey dad. I m okay. We hace to stay confined at home here. The police is arround every street and army is blocking the bic city axes of Brussel. Hopefully i just moved in a big duplex appartment, so i can breathe outside and chill on the terace wich is waaay better than a lot of persons of my age here! I m essentially writing, trying aquarelle but i m pretty bad ahaha. And chilling ln netflix, playlng some video games. I mean for once i can chill at home with no guilt so it is ok for no,. We ll see in two weekds when i ll feel like a lion in a cage. Anyway, what about you?What’s going on dad? Are you ok? How do you feel? And Kim? I still have to answer your previous message by the way .
MAR 24, 2020, 1:47 PM
Stephen Shellen
Watercolour painting I am guessing. Yeah,those can be really really fun,the water will kind of do the work. Get some charcoal too,that can be really fun and the charcoal will do the work when you blend it. It is a little messy but just wash your hands every once in a while.Been doing lots myself, working also on a big piece called The Corona Circus.Crazy clowns and animals.The faces are all distorted and missing teeth etc.Every seen Francis Bacon’s work? Really fucked up but a great painter
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Triptych – August 1972 | Art UK
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Francis Bacon – Portland Art Museum
Among the most significant figurative painters of the 20th century, Francis Bacon (British, 1909-1992) gave form to the emotional and psychological landscape of the modern era. Both acclaimed and reviled during his lifetime, the Dublin-born Bacon touched the raw nerve … Continued
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You could try watercolour with this idea as well. Let the water do it’s work, you’ll be amazed
Alright i ll try that!of course i ve seen francis bacon s work!
But as you see i still have to figure how to use it properly
But still, how are you?
Stephen Shellen
Magic carpet??
I am okay,still 25 years later a lot to figure out.Would like some answers before I die in vain.Kim is good, although she fell and has a concussion
You look GREAT!!!! That’s my boy!!!
Really like the writing with the paintings!
One more Francis Bacon titled (my title) Morgan’s morning after https://artimage.org.uk/21753/francis-bacon/triptych-may-june-1973
Triptych May–June 1973 : Francis Bacon : Artimage
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Bacon was a maniac.I knew someone that lived next to him when I lived in London in 1978-1980
MAR 24, 2020, 4:21 PM
Actually it would be translate as flying carpet. I know you re seeking for truth but i have no answer. I have to keep my vision, my mom’s vision and your vision seperate. But you should write your story one day. And illustrate it? I think i ll write one one of these days, from my own perspective…
Truth by our own words is subjective. If there is a god, he’s the one with an absolute correct answer. But the meaning of life would be lost if we could just ask him…
I can understand your feeling of injustice, fighting for truth as david against goliath. Near that i just hope you still managed to be happy. I understood by your facebook page that kim’s son had a son? Wow how lucky is that boy to have you around! I remember how funny you were with us!
I ll send you some stuff i do soon, it s going slowly but surely for me here
And if you ve got enough money one day, i d be glad to receive a paintings or two:
Thats my adress:
Rue Tasson-Snel, 36
1060 saint gilles
Bruxelles capitale
Belgium
Truth by our own words is subjective. If there is a god, he’s the one with an absolute correct answer. But the meaning of life would be lost if we could just ask him…
I can understand your feeling of injustice, fighting for truth as david against goliath. Near that i just hope you still managed to be happy. I understood by your facebook page that kim’s son had a son? Wow how lucky is that boy to have you around! I remember how funny you were with us!
I ll send you some stuff i do soon, it s going slowly but surely for me here
And if you ve got enough money one day, i d be glad to receive a paintings or two:
Thats my adress:
Rue Tasson-Snel, 36
1060 saint gilles
Bruxelles capitale
Belgium
Take care of yourself, and pleaaase write a book. Not only of that 1995 événement to our dayw but of all your life. Just start with shellen’s family, with your childhood and your hockey trainings with John!
Love you dad
MAR 24, 2020, 9:37 PM
Stephen Shellen
I actually have some paintings I can’t afford to have shipped tome so I would love you and Lily to have them. There are about 5…in Paris at a friend’s house.Man Morgan,not your fault at all but imagine if you hadn’t told me of men hitting mommy at that trailer at the gas station.I still would have probably been killed anyway.Hell, maybe you saved my sorry life. Don’t feel bad,she had bruises on her face and the only reason I saw the bruises is because she had makeup on trying to cover them and your mom never wore makeup on the farm. That began the trip,it’s why I called the police, because you and Lily said you were under the blankets at the trailer when she was doing whatever.It was not to hurt her but protect you both.The police came and saw the suitcase she was trying to leave with with that piece of paper written out in her handwriting, on how to collect life insurance (inheritance) when a spouse dies. Wow,I just wanted to help you both and help her.What a waste of a life. I can’t write a book, maybe a fiction but I can’t.Even when I try I start shaking. I am getting help for PTSD from all the surveillance and harassment I received back then, up to 2002.Yeah,it is great havin a grandson but part of me disconnects, as I have written.Reminds me(maybe because you were both so young when all this started) of you guys. His little innocent face, so cute and vulnerable,like you both were.
Stephen Shellen
Without any kind of answer I guess I am as good as dead. I have a really hard life right now,no money,no jobs.I am not allowed to work as an actor or a voiceactor. Was told by my last agent, they are afraid of what I might say! She is dead now.I don’t know who you mother knew as what she was connected to but fuck me, it was heavy. I tried and tried and tried for years but I am tired.Even if I get any kind of success it is followed by no work,”you can’t talk about it” and go away and die. Wish you knew my step children,they are really good people and they know who I am. All the craziness for so many years and now, I look around, ans I see Weinstein and people in Hollywood going down.ALL sex related crimes! Yet my story means nothing to anyone.Ritual abuse exists,most likely you should do some regressive therapy, find out why your mother was drowning a kitten in front of you. I also don’t believe this life is the whole enchilada. Something happens after this,we are spirits, not skin and bones.
Stephen Shellen
I see that photo of you painting and it is almost unbearable. I wish(maybe in the next life) that you and I can paint together and experience all that we could have experienced this lifetime of things had been different.You soul was always so damn great! You were such a great little guy. I hope your daughter has a chance to be apart of you,to see your spirit and be able to be proud of her father. I hope I am not being dramatic, I am just worn out.Others try with me and give me advice but I don’t bother with them, basically I tell them to fuck off or leave me alone.Christianity worked back when I was really under heavy surveillance and fear for my life but not so much these days. One more thing, I think Frank Giustra might go down for his crimes and he is the man that claimed to have started Lionsgate but it was in fact myself and John A Hardy(the guy that told me to keep my mouth shut about my kids or I was dead and denied ever starting Lionsgate with me.Well,there were a lot of people that I introduced Hardy to in Los Angeles and they KNOW that was my company, my idea.If, only if, something happens to me,talk to Kim and try to find some way to sue Giustra for the theft.Giustra is worth about 8 billion dollars and he has NEVER come out and sued me for saying it was my company and that guy sues everybody. He is a fake and a fraud. You and Lily could(wouldn’t that be great) never have to work again and make a fortune. That is I guess, a major reason why I had 3 safety box breakins and constant paperwork stolen.Your mother has to remember all of this as I started forming a film production company out of Vancouver Canada, right after you were born.I met with stock brokers and venture capitalists in Vancouver,after we had sold the house in Los Angeles and were living with you in the motorhome. It was my solution to all the crap with Velina and her lawyers and I was determined to start my own production company I never asked Hardy to get involved he asked me and said he had money people. Hardy’s father ran CSIS(Canada CIA) but at the time, I knew very little about that world and didn’t give a crap.People still remember meeting Hardy,as when we were all on the farm, I would go down to L.A.and meet Hardy where I introduced him to writers,distributors and producers. It is about all I can offer you financially, besides the art in Paris. My own family stopped talking to me right after everything went down in 95 and my sister got everything of my mothers. Oh well, fuck em.
Stephen Shellen
Not trying to be depressing buy I don’t want you and Lily to go through what I have.You both should have money and be living comfortably.
Believe it or not,I was an optimist, thinking it would all change and come around. I isn’t going to for me, but maybe for you both
People do strange things for money. Families murder other family members. Once someone accepts they money, they are done. I have never been offered any deal and didn’t want, and still don’t want much other than for you 2 to have a better life and live well
MAR 25, 2020, 7:26 PM
Stephen Shellen
“The Clintons’ “poison dwarf”
As we have mentioned corruption is rampant on both sides of the border, here is an exert from Abel Danger on the Clinton Foundation and its…
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“Giustra co-founded Lionsgate Films [in fact, interloper Frank Giustra hijacked the original company LionsGate from co-founder Stephen Shellen via treacherous co-founder John A. Hardy, a Vancouver lawyer, starting in 1995″
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JUN 1, 2020, 2:35 AM
Stephen Shellen
Insanity all over, worry about you and Lily, hope you are okay
you know how to get to the mountains and survive if you have to because this is getting insane.Please check on Lily for me, if she is still in Peru it may be best
Stephen Shellen
Otherwise it is just a zoo,nothing to fear but fear itself and i’ll see you on the other side, love you both
guess the zoo keepers are angry we found out about them, stay away from castles in Belgium please
JUN 1, 2020, 8:40 AM
Woow i just dreamed about you all night long and i woke up with a message! Lily s ok, she s is south of france,among the nature with her boyfriend so it is allright! I m still in brussel jut i can t get out because frontiers are still closed here but i m alright, and i know how to get away from here when i ll need it. Are you feeling better? Are you and kim alright? Take care !!!
AUG 10, 2020, 8:45 PM
Stephen Shellen
Was going to send you a card but not sure I have the correct address or how I spell it out as I don’t understand Saint Gilles, is that a section in Bruxelles? 1060 is that the postal code??
AUG 11, 2020, 4:47 AM
Hey dad! Yea 36 rue tasson snel. 1060 st gilles,brussel It is a section of brussel like an arrondissement in paris!
AUG 16, 2020, 11:37 AM
Stephen Shellen
Happy Birthday I hope!! Love you!!
Thanks dad! I m a lucky man surrounded by good persons ! Love you too xoox
TUE 3:12 PM
Stephen Shellen
Did you get my little card and drawing??
Hey dad! I m not at home,i m road trippin right now but i ll be back next week and my girlfriend told me i receive a letter so i guess that s you 
I ll read it when i ll be home 
